Psalm 18:34 It is GOD that girded me with strength;
that made my way perfect
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Who Am I
Cheryl
Child of GOD
SCGS 4SY '07
Dancer
Shalom Youth
dailies
Thursday, March 29, 2007
-6:28 PM
My newfound most-need friend for the past 2 days:
THE EAR THERMOMETER
-3:21 PM
BIO was a disaster. and so was PHYSICS.
i think it was GOD's perfect timing that i fell sick after the bio test. bcos when i came home and went to take a nap, i woke up with a fever and throat infection. so here i am at home since yesterday, not going to school and slacking around in my bed
getting a fever of 38.7 just really brings me memories when i had a fever when i was young..cos my mum had to keep sponging me and i hated to swallow tablets or the disgusting pink syrup.
i missed school for 2 days- ITS ENOUGH rest already.going back tmr and i just hope that i didnt miss out too much
Monday, March 26, 2007
-11:46 AM
TYPES OF FLOWERS (exerpt from my bio notes) 1.Inflorescences: Flowers that occur in clusters 2. Incomplete flowers: Do not have all the four whorls of the normal flower 3. Bisexual: Have both the stamen and pistil in the same flower 4. Unisex: Only either have the stamen or pistil in the same flower 5. Monoecius: Have both male and female unisex flowers in the same plant 6. Dioecius: Male and females flowers are on different flowers 7. Radially symmetrical: Flower can be divided into half along more than one longitudinal plane. 8. Bilaterally symmetrical: Flower can only be divided along one longitudinal plane. 9. Superior ovary: Ovary rests on the receptacle 10.Inferior ovary: Ovary is fused within the receptacle
this is like 1/20 of the whole chapter.
Biology is getting to my head. its going to be 12am and the information is not going in. HOW?HOW? HOW? bio takes up too much of one's brain memory space
Saturday, March 24, 2007
-1:12 AM
I kinda regret now that i didnt go for the BGR retreat during the march hols- school is ever so demanding..anyway, from today's followup, i brought home alot of thoughts about relationships and about my own personality as well
i think its funny when i have the opposite views from what most girls in our YF have about CERTAIN (not ALL!!!) BGR questions..i deduced that i probably think more pragmatic as opposed to going along with one's emotions/feelings. becuase i am quite sure i am not the kind of person who would read more into situations and how a guy treats me and all...a gesture is pretty much direct to me, theres nothing to read between the lines and concoct my own imaginations!
i also dont see a problem with people of the opposite gender making a comment on my wardrobe- not the complimenting kind but more of the "critical" kind.example: skirt a little short..i think its out of genuine concern and i would gladly take it as constructive feedback :] everyone's mind is made differently, but personally i rather recieve comments directly bcos of the reason that it saves more time and effort for both parties?
i suppose society is alot more liberal and open nowadays to having women being the main breadwinner of the family (their husbands have to be comfortable with this arrangement, of course)..if all the intellectual females in this world (and in my class-4SY) end up with high-paying jobs, does that mean that their chances of getting married are reduced?of course not.
it really depends what stage people are in their lives and what their priorities are. the environment you are in and the friends you have also are also a big factor on whether one is prepared to enter into a serious relationship..its pretty much clear for me and loads of people around me in SC, studies is our main responsiblity..so it really obvious that nothing uneccesary should distract us from reaching our highest potential academically..seriously, i want and am aiming to hold a good and well-respected job next time. yueyun and I have the exact same career goals in mind :]
Friday, March 23, 2007
-7:27 PM
it has been a good week for me at school for the past few days..not that the workload decreased but certain things have made me happier :]
really want to THANK GOD for my friends at school,the same exact people who encourage me, the ones i laugh and talk nonsense and complain about school and O levels about, the friends who care and experience the exact same thing i am going through now at SC..Thank God for giving me such support so that i can actually go to school and find some sort of relief: for yueyun, rhea,rachel, grace tang,clarissa, grace gan, janice, huishan
I have been reading the Redemptions Series by Karen Kingsbury- the novel is so realistic and yet it speaks volumes about God's grace in our lives.i actually can read and note down things to apply from the content and lessons learnt..
So glad that dissection is out of my syllabus, not that im afraid to dissect things but its plain cruelty to just knock out a frog and slice it open and then still see its heart beating..mr teh is supposedly 'menopausal' as everyone else puts it! haha hes been really irritated at our class every single time we ask a question..saw a sheep's heart dissection yesterday and stuck my fingers into one of the arteries and janice and I keep squishing the fat around the heart and tried to snap one of the cordae tendenae..cmon we were just being inquistive biology students!
another major thing that happened this week. its academic related: i recieved 34/35 for amath test 2!!! i really cant believe it, but the moment i sat down after getting my script, grace and I just sat in our seats and said a short prayer and thanked God for our results..you people probably dont know what the grade means to me. this has been a subject that i have never ever done well for.i practiced so many TYS questions and yes, God IS Good :) it really doesnt matter that 3 other people in my class had full marks and about 6 others had the same grade as me- but im really really really happy!
guess what came in the mail?this ralph lauren pamphlet- the kids are really cute.
all the cute kids in the world :]
Monday, March 19, 2007
-9:12 PM
first day of term 2 and 4SY had to face a whole hoard of disappointed teachers who used words like 'complacent' to describe our studying attitude and made it ever so clear that they are expecting nothing less than an A1- well, except for higher chinese, not that im exactly not going to study for HCL, seeing that ms tan has set an aim:
Now i have to get a B3 for HCL, which is erm kinda impossible to achieve. unless a miracle happens of course.
im getting really really really swayed by all those newspapers articles on the topic that polytechnics are no different- not that i thought otherwise all along though..bcos seriously, i am in no mood to do badly for a levels and jepordize my chances of getting in a good and preferred course in university. man. why not go to poly? but theres one prob: im still indecisive about what i wanna do in the future; probably have too many choices to pick from
but i dont see why its the better students fault that average students now have difficulty getting into their ideal courses in poly. surely everyone is entitled to their own choice and spore works on the basis of meritocracy..if you want that coveted spot, go work hard and fight for it! SO SIMPLE. why shouldnt MOE increase intake for the average students for entry into JC? if poly is seen to be a better choice for top students, the govt should offer alternative equal opportunities for the average students to excel in..otherwise, its totally not fair for the good pupils to take the blame for 'hogging' the good places in poly
oh yeah today rachel's mum said i look like COCO LEE. i went like HUH? and she said yunhui looks like QUAN YIFENG!that was so funny!i was even surprised that her mum remembered my name! shes always recognizes my face but forgets my name
Thursday, March 15, 2007
-1:04 AM
Just got hit by a fresh wave of tired-ness. the really severe kind where i wished i could sleep on forever and forever..like how i woke up at 7am, did some work,couldnt take it anymore and slept again at 10.30am! had minimal energy to dance today plus the fact that the colic problem/headache/dizziness is still stuck with me doesnt help..took a well-needed rest after dance and didnt go for ballet :[ my technique is deproving like crazy
Prayed and re-committed my physical health to GOD. Lord, i need your strength and sustenence to see me through the days ahead
i think my reading speed accelerated again. because i'm suddenly able to read the whole straits times plus digital life on tues.AMAZING.bcos people like me dont actually touch digital life unless im really bored during breakfast.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
-12:03 PM
new skin. pink and cheery- pink's not really my colour, but the skin looks nice to me,so why not? :p
that aside, went out for to sakae at wheelock on monday with yunhui, rhea and clarissa (while Jodi was celebrating her birthday :] )..had a really good relaxed and refreshing time of 2.5hours spent at sakae, eating sushi and drinking ice water.it really never felt so good to be away from school..rhea bought this "leadership guide" thing at borders for $40+! we swear the head prefect/leader thing is seriously getting to her..talked alot to yunhui about how her life has changed after going over to NUS high, our personalities, future career options after the sakae tea/lunch/dinner(it started at 3pm) while eating brownies+ice cream and walking around paragon, takashimaya aimlessly. i felt that that monday was purposefully spent, having spent meaningful time with friends in the midst of school and all :]
i found people to study and learn japanese or korean or french with me- clarissa says shes interested in jap and french, i finally have some idea that there is actually someone who is also has an inclination to take up more than 1 foreign language..we have kinda made an arrangement to learn together once O levels are over. korean is relatively easy to pick up compared to french.or i might be learning jap with mum and charlotte since charlotte has her academic future planned out for her for the next few year, and mum is making her pick up jap when she's 7. i totally disagreed with mum on this point; i said its really hard to make people learn something they dont know or have no interest in. like how math was and is and will be the bane of my life. mum and i were having a small debate of this matter..and she's the person in charge around here, so i step aside and let her do what she thinks is best for her kids-US!
oh yunhui reminded me about something: I WANT AND NEED TO BRUSH UP ON MY SPOKEN CANTONESE.its been bugging me for quite a long time. hah. its not even my dialect.but i like the sound of it and i'm hoping that i can one day converse fluently with my por por and gong gong in cantonese instead of just understanding what they are saying and replying in chinese instead..
i have no idea how people have said that 'ignorance is bliss' bcos to me, it doesnt seem possible. i dont find myself feeling contented or blissful for that matter when i'm not in the know. which is why i enjoy reading so much :] getting hold of new and exciting (maybe not) and useful (definitely,all the time) infomation makes me intrigued- i was reading something about how our optimum sleep temperature is around 18degrees..and i tried it out, and it didnt exactly apply to me.i didnt know that theres something called electronic pollution that can affect sleep!theres something to learn everyday
my thoughts are getting random..maybe its a decreasing ability to keep my mind organized for some unexplained reason
Thursday, March 08, 2007
-4:35 AM
As cherie has accurately pointed out. we are both at home today. didnt go to school. can i say that its more like i didnt feel like going through 6 hours of brain drain..had MC for today which was really convenient- helped me to escape the supposed horrid SS test today. Apparently i have colic ( or so the doctor said yesterday), at least i now know that I am not suffering from randoms bouts of nausea and headaches for the past 5 days.
Nevertheless, me and my fellow counterparts at school have been complaining about how school life is so depressing. Man, its one long anti-school week. Trying hard to be optimistic about the very very short deadline for our assignments..We would think we would never survive through JC like this.
Anyway, its pictures time! Really long ago, from CNY and stuggart ballet :] Looking at these pictures make me HAPPY :] or at least less stressed from school
From left: janice, weiqin, bi, yueyun, me, shanice, eryn Before stuggart performance! we unglamly tried to get into the seats as lady like as possible..which unfortunately didnt quite work out with the skirts and heels hah.
4SY class pic outside our classroom during CNY celebrations. everyone included except janice and eileen.
From left: emelyn, charlotte, lynne, almas, janice, vanessa, me, rhea, yueyun After CNY celebrations! At fish and Co. i think janice kept the reciept or something..i vaguely remember that we spent quite a lot. From left: me,grace, vanessa During CNY celebrations!we were towering over everyone else that day since we are already so tall and we elevated our height by at least5cm! :] sat at the back of the rows and took this pic! AHA. this is a nice one. also during CNY celebrations. MAIN FOCUS OF THE PICTURE: Mrs Low Ay Nar our principal..she was really sporting and played the station games our class put up
Thursday, March 01, 2007
-12:08 PM
These 3 days are slackish days-its Enrichment week!
the joy of waking up late and going to school at 1pm..went to bishan yesterday to collect newspapers.there were about 5 of us covering 2 blocks (24 stories each) and lifts that stopped at every 4th floor..worse still, there was this group of guys at the void decks who would haraass (maybe thats too strong a word, but still,) us and all of us would try to speed-walk like crazy past them to drop the stacks of newspapers at the collection point.
went to see karen ystd also..shes in the physio department at Saint Andrew's Village..my leg is aching now. She kneaded my quards so hard, it was so painful.have to go back for another session
watched Supernanny on central today for the 1st time and it was frightening and shocking to see how kids as young as three were using such extreme profanities at the parents!! Ashley and I were so shocked. I'm really glad that cherie,ashley,charlotte and myself included are somewhat alright children who were brought up in a strict-enough environment so that we are not scared of our parents and yet show respect to them as well :]
