Psalm 18:34 It is GOD that girded me with strength;
that made my way perfect
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Who Am I
Cheryl
Child of GOD
SCGS 4SY '07
Dancer
Shalom Youth
dailies
Friday, September 28, 2007
-11:33 PM
panadol keeps me happy and alive- no, im not on drugs, i have a horrible fever again, like i really need this to happen to me,especially how my life hasnt been that smooth sailing during the past week
mel says that its like BOOT CAMP. but the truth is, i have to attend amath remedial lessons! not that im complaining, since im in a very motivated mood nowadays- it is actually very amusing to see all the teachers trying to fight for our time whenever possible
my throat feels like it has just been vaccuumed DRY
Sunday, September 23, 2007
-8:36 PM
life (especially exams) has a strange way of creeping up on you and jolting you straight in the bottom- like how red-hot poker does
i wouldnt say im upset, its much too a strong word to utilize.yes, disappointed is the word; its strange though, that i have lost the necessary emotions to feel sad over such failures-i dont feel the pain/ache that much anymore..maybe my mind is drifting into oblivion!
okay.but at least i've realised where my mistakes lie now- theres no way im going to disappoint myself a second time- i cant allow it;maybe im too proud to admit defeat
PS: i actually didnt do THAT badly, but being the person I am, im not satisfied easily
-11:50 AM
was in the midst of deleting like at least 2GB worth of kpop videos when i chanced on this AMAZING performance again (obviously i didnt delete this one)
ahh. what bliss- just what i need in the midst of stress: nice voices singing ballads (:
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
-5:52 PM
YAY (: i applied to be a translator at GOESS and got accepted as a Chinese translator and editor- this is one way to ensure that I
A) actually contribute to the high-quality subtitled dongbang/suju/SM videos online and not only just watch what other people contribute B) Mantain my standard of chinese by being continually exposed to it (especially after Sec4)
Should be working on the Rainbow Romance project pretty soon i hope
Monday, September 17, 2007
-8:53 PM
its difficult to mantain discipline right now- but im trying!
today i took my ballet exam in between the other 2 papers; Ms Koh and Mrs Julie Lee were such nice staff/people, they just make you feel comfortable talking to them despite the fact that they are ex-co members of our school board..
so today, i had a 1. free lunch, courtesy of Mrs Lee who said she felt so bad that i had to be kept under such strict 'surveillence', and we talked over a lot of matter during lunch (popiah & mee siam).. 2. A bottle of NeWater: Ms Koh kept asking both us if we had rested enough and had a good lunch! 3. An Apple Pie: Mrs Hannah Kwan insisted on giving it to us after we took our amath exam in the general office's conference room
i think i shall write a thank you note for both of them;being caring/nice enough to make our arrangement so hassle-free (: im struggling to keep my focus straight for Os,theres the usual mentality to SLACK since prelims are over. well, we are getting some results back this week :(
that aside, im glad that Mr Aso has "verbally conceded" the role of being Japan's Premier to Mr Fukoku- If the LDP has the welfare of their country in mind, Mr Aso totally wont do because his policies would be similar to that of Mr Abe, and look where got him- Resignation and Hospital(due to stress).Idealism doesnt exactly gel with citizens you know, what they are more concerned with are bolder economic policies and pension issues. the new premier better sort the whole Pension scandal straight, after all Japan has a ageing population- unless of course, he welcomes the critism of the opposition politicians and newsmakers, which are very scary and demoralizing. but then again, i feel so sorry for Mr Abe: he was capable you know, just that somehow his ministers in the cabinet never failed to land themselves into numerous scandals and humiliating incidents.Especially his farm ministers, poor guy.Yes, i agree to some extent that it was his fault that his cabinet was filled with scandals, but the premier isnt exactly and cannot be always in control of his ministers' actions, especially since alot of the scandals stemmed back a few year back!
Pathos- a new word I learnt today
Sunday, September 09, 2007
-4:23 AM
its something called the gut feeling
and therefore, my gut feeling is that: im totally doomed for prelims. no one is able to reassure me that im actually prepared enough because im aware of the amount of preparation done and what im capable of as a result of such meagre work..its something that isnt very tangible, but i am fully aware that i have not tried my best;its just a feeling that is within me. and i know that this coming week spells DOOM
the best thing to do right before a biology exam is to attempt a fresh practice paper from a reputable school and then worry my brain off about not being able to answer questions and not get my A1. great.
sorry for the sacarstic tone-but as i mentioned to cherie, im prepared to not get my 6A1s and the realistic aggregrate would probably be a 10. this is what i call early mental preparation
rhea was right. doing TYS papers does give me a false sense of confidence.after all, what school would set such simple questions as the Cambridge examiners do?
good luck to me and my brain.
Monday, September 03, 2007
-8:43 PM
im not in a motivated mood-which spells a very horrible attitude towards my prelims (major papers) that commence after sept holidays.cant exactly be very optimistic right now :(
as a desperate resort in an attempt to secure the minimal 6 A1s that we need,yeyun ,rhea.rachel and I having study sessions today for the entire week- not that our lives depend on our prelim results, but esp. rhea & yueyun who realised that they've been slacking their butts off during the weekend-they decided to start getting hardworking/motivated. today's session wasnt too bad for me, manage to complete most of my biology and started on geog
and im reading again!which i really shouldnt be doing, it distracts me from studying. title: Life and Death in Shanghai by Nien Cheng through this account of China's cultural revolution, i finally have a better understanding of communism,maoists,the red guards- which i have been dying to know about a long time ago..the best part, is that the author has written in how she prayed and trusted in GOD during the period when she was placed in solitary confinment for 6 whole years- historically rich and inspiring as well
and rhea made all of us watch the ending parts of jay chou's movie-secret & she did a real good job holding the secret in..rachel & I were guessing like crazy- like she was some ghost/spirit or his half or long lost sister.the plot is kinda confusing with all the time changes and doesnt make complete sense in some parts.but it is CLICHE.kudos for jay for improving on his pronunciation, it is now actually possible to make out what he is singing in the theme song (:
